Have you heard of George Costanza Disease? (I made the name up, so…probably not.) Well, I have this unfortunate malady. George Costanza Disease is something millions of people suffer, I believe, many without even knowing about it. It’s a silent killer. GCD is named after the George Costanza character from Seinfeld. George can’t stand it when someone doesn’t like him. In the episode where his illness is most evident, Jerry’s girlfriend (a masseuse) cannot stand George. This bothers George at first but eventually something else inside of him takes over: GCD. He begins to pursue the girlfriend’s regard only to end up having a crush on her. (By this time, she has dumped Jerry because she refused to submit to forced massage.) She still can’t stand George, which only drives his passion. He must have her and won’t quit vying for her positive attitude towards him (romantically, too). Hilarious!
I don’t suffer with GCD to that crazy extent, but it does bug me when someone doesn’t like me for unknown reasons. I’m glad for the part of it that helps me look at who I am and what I am like. GCD helps me change things I might need to change (while keeping me true to myself), if that change could help people. Yet this isn’t always the healthiest of things. When GCD overtakes me being true to myself or leading me to incessantly worry what someone thinks of me, I need to stop feeding that feeling.
Right now, I’m reading through Jesus Calling, a daily devotional by missionary Sarah Young, when I came across a passage that speaks to my condition.
“Beware of seeing yourself to other people’s eyes. The major problem with letting others to define you borders on idolatry. Your concern to please others dampens your desire to please Me, your Creator. Through My eyes you can see yourself as one who is deeply, eternally loved.”
Great stuff for GCD sufferers! The only known cure for us is being deeply rooted in Christ. So, drink that in. Be free of George Costanza Disease and live for whose opinion ultimately matters for you.
(Not that there’s anything wrong with that!)