I already looked there…. — #1word5voices #40days

Have you ever looked HIGH and LOW and HIGH again for something you know was in a the exact place you looked for it at the beginning of your search?  I do this all the time.  My wife claims that I’m blind when I am supposed to look for something specific for which she sends me to find.  [I would argue this point, but let’s be honest.  Just ask her about the bottle of ketchup.]

I remember back as a teenager, probably as a 14 or 15 year old, hearing an inner voice say to me, “Brian, you need to change.”  I knew that this was God speaking to me.

This wasn’t like a padded cell kind of experience, I promise.

I distinctly remember hearing God speak to me, inaudibly.  This isn’t something that I use as a point of pride.  I didn’t remember this periodic, recurring feeling until after I legitimately had an experience of finding God as revealed in Jesus Christ.

So when I finally, truly aknowledged that God is real and that God loves me as demonstrated in the sacrifice and resurrection of Jesus, I remembered that I had heard the Spirit’s call to me.  It was a call to change and to search for meaning somewhere other than whatever I thought was giving me meaning in 1993.

I wasn’t actively searching for God.  I was a 16 year old, desparately trying to fit in and gain acceptance.  The irony is that, while trying to gain acceptance, I was really searching for meaning that only Jesus could give me.  I only wanted to be loved.  I knew that my parents and sisters loved me, but that “didnt’ count.”  Remember, 16 year olds don’t always have the greatest perspective, but I believe they do have hearts that are searching for meaning.

Look at what you’re actively, or unconciously, searching for.  My guess is that God is ready to satisfy whatever you seeking.

I love this quote from the book The World, The Flesh, and Father Smith by Bruce Marshall (1945, p. 108):

“. . .the young man who rings the bell at the brothel is unconsciously looking for God.”

What are you searching for?

LOL at the last entry on Google….


The other #1word5voices crew reflecting during Lent are: Heather Kostelnick, Shawn Franssens, Stephanie Mutert, and Lindsay Evans.

Lent 2015 -- large graphic


About Brian Swanson

Christ follower. Screw up. Stained with grace. Ruined by Jesus.
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